rehearsal day.. mixture of exhaustion and happiness...

continue~~

6th of june 2009

went to greentown square.. a newly built building... went there for meeting.. drama thing...
oh my God!! it's totally worth for RM30 per ticket... it's kinda a charity performance... although rehearsal on this day, but i could feel the fun of it...
damn it!! their voice are really great and their expressions and dancings are magnificent! well.. they're professionals of course... xp
after everything were finished at about 11.20pm, we went for our dinner... lol... supper i supposed but everyone was busy practicing until the time was so late that we forgotten to eat.. eric says that he treat us and all of us go to "dong gu ting" restaurant......
i followed john's car.. waseh......he's car is........... damn it!! nissan sentra!! i mean there's nothing to be so surprise about a car like his... but he doesn't look like a guy who drives a big car... lol... plus, he's just 19.. "P" license with a brand new car... sobx... when i could ever own a car like this at this young age... argh... gotta find a rich boyfriend... wakaka
john was so stress that he drove to the wrong place twice and gotta turn rounds before we headed for the correct direction.. lol.. maybe he couldn't concentrate that there's so many pretty girls in his car.. wakaka
he teased him the whole way to the restaurant... guess what.. we reached there the last.. everyone reached before us... lol... no need to asked why... haha
unfortunately i gotta find someone to fetch me back... pierre... thanks to him... ^^
went back home late jor and too tired jau asleep liao...

anyway... i hope my happy moments with whoever friends will never end....
^^

quotes that expresses feelings...

loving you is what i precious

once a friend, always a friend

love.. yieujin

darling!! lol... longkang queen of the day..

6th june 2009
went to parade.. met with jamie, irene, jiun li, kar king, desmond... we went for bowling.. played 2 games and have some walks... i met jiun li.. kinda long time ago since we met... i guess... erm.. 10 years back?? haha...


me and my darling ^^


my old friend.. looks sweet eh ^^
me and jiun li..

to be continue~~

night at the (museum) cinema... lol...

5th of june 2009
went jusco watch movie... night at the museum movie... kinda funny but not as i expected thou.. i prefer part 1 de.... after watched den eat... heesss.. that's why i'm having big tummy now and planning to diet... sobx...


waiting for food... ^^


yummy!! erm....but it's not mine... T.T


delicious!! gen's de... too bad... lol...


tom yam... this is mine!! buahahaha


lol... enjoying taking pictures while waiting the car.. boohoo

nothing much happen this days.. just busy enjoying my holidays while it lasts... lol


on 3rd june 2009,
cleaned the house and went to kai yun's house.. plan to follow her car for a meeting.. kind of a drama meeting.. i have my group dee... wuhoo!! ^^ i'm a stage coordinator only la... lol
but this event seems like kinda fun... can't wait for it...
i went to her house at 4pm.. but i kinda having problems of remembering things... omg... i thought the meeting will be starting at 5.30pm.. sweat when i found out it only starts at 8pm... lol..
all of them laughing at me.. ish... so paiseh... meeting new people there... have to remember their names as soon as possible 'cause it'll be a problem for not knowing their names when we get started on our work then... anyway... having lots of fun talking and having dinner with them.. they're sweet!!! ^^

satisfaction against sadness

1st of june

joined mok for revision...
he's kinda funny... lol... couldn't be bothered to be sad when i'm with friends... thus... smiled all day... erm.. but they were sincere smiles i could tell... ^^

anyway... thankx for the day ^^

yieujin... couldn't stop being heartless...

appreciate the moments

on 30th may 2009
went to tuition as usual... then went to parade with zhi weng, chris, jean.. but jean went back earlier to studio.. kinda still miss them... besties forever!!!
then met wince.. she's kinda sweet... lol.. understand why chris kinda............ buahaha...
then went to momo cafe for steamboat... anthony drive me go.. =.= legs shaking after we reached.. he almost knocked a car... sweat.... while riding also still wanted to chat with me... lol..
everyone kinda gone crazy at the moment.. but i just keep quiet for the day.. still pondering about these days... don't know what had happened to me... mood swings very fast... at first kinda gone crazy together but suddenly will cross my mind about sad things that happened recently.. especially i hate it went i saw jean's boy friend when each time he starts to argue with me.. duh!!
despite all happy things happened, i am still distraught about something that keeps me from being cheerful.. i don't really know what is it...
anyway... all i have to do is keep smiling.. erm.. more out of pretentious than desire...

all i ever need is just you..

cause i'm in love with you....

yieujin...

meaningless...

regret of not appreciating

regret of taking things for granted

regret that i didn't value them

regret that i take things too frivolously

regret that i see things too simple

regret that thing that were actually mine but giving it to someone else

regret that i am too trusting

regret that i am too easily getting cheated

regret that i intentionally did something stupid

regret that i utter those absurd words that i hope i never have said

regret that i still do not want to accept the fact that you are gone...

acs play... fascinating!!

on 13th of april 2009


went to church as usual.. go for breakfast in kar pin there.. met my friend gorilla mok...

then ate the 3rd round in chatter yik foong there to accompany my friend..

walked to tuition together then to yik foong to repair shoes and then to parade...

at last we went to acs for the play...

and the show begins...

the voices of the characters' are very beautiful.. they made everything kinda perfect.. props are good..

the day was to conclude as exhausting!! anyhow, memorable~

lucky i'm in love with my best friend... xp

hahax... funny conversation... my opinion with tim's opinions about falling in love with best friend... xD

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ÿí€ú-jïñ ™ lþÿ- *jilat penyu* 我會很愛很愛你 ~ says:
huh?

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Kit Kat (TAKE NOTE:expired) says:
jz testing oni.. yit li's laptop

ÿí€ú-jïñ ™ lþÿ- *jilat penyu* 我會很愛很愛你 ~ says:
ooh.. y u rasmikan her laptop de?
curi curi ah?? haha

Kit Kat (TAKE NOTE:expired) says:
nope
she is beside me
wanna test her webcam oni

ÿí€ú-jïñ ™ lþÿ- *jilat penyu* 我會很愛很愛你 ~ says:
ceh.. wah..... lucky i'm in love with my best friend?????
that's unlucky...

Kit Kat (TAKE NOTE:expired) says:
non of ur business
blek

ÿí€ú-jïñ ™ lþÿ- *jilat penyu* 我會很愛很愛你 ~ says:
=.=
i guan sum u bt u say i pat... ... sum tam liao

Kit Kat (TAKE NOTE:expired) says:
nvr heard b4 meh
jason mraz-lucky
copy part of da lyrics oni

ÿí€ú-jïñ ™ lþÿ- *jilat penyu* 我會很愛很愛你 ~ says:
ceh.. ya wo
haha
hak dou me
in my opinion, in love wit bes fren is a bad thg... swt... duno y da lyric writer say he's lucky

Kit Kat (TAKE NOTE:expired) says:
u oni

ÿí€ú-jïñ ™ lþÿ- *jilat penyu* 我會很愛很愛你 ~ says:
ceh
means for u is a gd thg la? zzz

Kit Kat (TAKE NOTE:expired) says:
yea
good thing
good fren chat more ma
haha
if understanding 1..den can save $ lo

ÿí€ú-jïñ ™ lþÿ- *jilat penyu* 我會很愛很愛你 ~ says:
oh... bt bes fren bcum gf den lose a bestie liao... nt gd...

Kit Kat (TAKE NOTE:expired) says:
good
better than wif some1 dat cant chat alot

ÿí€ú-jïñ ™ lþÿ- *jilat penyu* 我會很愛很愛你 ~ says:
ooh... mayb... but if break liao den bes fren oso knot b....

Kit Kat (TAKE NOTE:expired) says:
for me...im sure dat that wont happen to me

ÿí€ú-jïñ ™ lþÿ- *jilat penyu* 我會很愛很愛你 ~ says:
ahem... this thgs vy hard 2 say......
u cant predict wut wil happen in future
cz nth is impossible.... especially when it comes 2 lovey dovey

Kit Kat (TAKE NOTE:expired) says:
see first la

ÿí€ú-jïñ ™ lþÿ- *jilat penyu* 我會很愛很愛你 ~ says:
lol
nth 2 say jo... wakakaka
ei... i'll put our conversation in2 my blog dere... hahahaha

Kit Kat (TAKE NOTE:expired) says:
-_-''

ÿí€ú-jïñ ™ lþÿ- *jilat penyu* 我會很愛很愛你 ~ says:
cz so funny la

Kit Kat (TAKE NOTE:expired) says:
u funny oni
not me
im a serious guy
blek

ÿí€ú-jïñ ™ lþÿ- *jilat penyu* 我會很愛很愛你 ~ says:
tink back is tru eh... u reli luk vy serious wo.... each tm see dou u, u oso luk cool cool de

Kit Kat (TAKE NOTE:expired) says:
speechless d

ÿí€ú-jïñ ™ lþÿ- *jilat penyu* 我會很愛很愛你 ~ says:
hahax...
yit li so gd de... let u use her laptop....
let me send some virus 2 u 1st... hehehe

Kit Kat (TAKE NOTE:expired) says:
as long as i don receive any file from u den no worries la..

ÿí€ú-jïñ ™ lþÿ- *jilat penyu* 我會很愛很愛你 ~ says:
ceh... swt.... u gt bloggie?

Kit Kat (TAKE NOTE:expired) says:
nope
don like to play blog
nothing to share

ÿí€ú-jïñ ™ lþÿ- *jilat penyu* 我會很愛很愛你 ~ says:
ceh... write blog la... can express ur sadness....

Kit Kat (TAKE NOTE:expired) says:
no sadness
haha
sien
don have time for blog

ÿí€ú-jïñ ™ lþÿ- *jilat penyu* 我會很愛很愛你 ~ says:
ceh.... u'll addicted 2 it de la... same like me... write til non stop de...

Kit Kat (TAKE NOTE:expired) says:
i can tell u
i wont

ÿí€ú-jïñ ™ lþÿ- *jilat penyu* 我會很愛很愛你 ~ says:
ceh... write blog can let ppl noe ur sadness den auto jau gt ppl come advice u n guan sum guan sum u... very hang fuk de...
hahaha

Kit Kat (TAKE NOTE:expired) says:
don need to let ppl know too much
have privacy..u know.. blek

ÿí€ú-jïñ ™ lþÿ- *jilat penyu* 我會很愛很愛你 ~ says:
=.= so secretive....
u wanna guan sum me anot ark? if 1 den can read my blog la... haha

Kit Kat (TAKE NOTE:expired) says:
hah?
see first la
wanna rest now
later going youth

ÿí€ú-jïñ ™ lþÿ- *jilat penyu* 我會很愛很愛你 ~ says:
ooh... ya wo.... enjoy urself in youth la ^^
u rest la
du1 kacau u xD



lame conversation.. wakaka... funny too... =.="

dilemma...

mass communication or accounting???
dilemma-ing le... aikx...

erm.. i thought of choosing accounting but then after listening to the education workshop, i might choose mass communication... actually i had thought of being a deejay when i grow up... that was my ambition last 2 years.. then don't know why my ambition changed to accountant... maybe i love to count money and its smell gua... muahaha... humans are realistic... you can't blame me for that... xp

in the aspect of income, i would choose accounting while
in the aspect of interest i would choose mass communication...

cause becoming a deejay isn't a bad choice though... i love to share my opinion or even feelings to my listeners... i may also get to listen to the listeners' life experience... well, i don't know why... just that i love it....

while becoming an accountant isn't a bad alternative too.. *sweat*
even my parents' egg on me to take this field... (absolutely because the income is high)
but there's a bad thing; i'm a too-indoor-phobia that type of person... i could also feel like dying even i don't speak a minute... =.="

haix... can anyone tell me which one to choose? =.= i know... i'm the only one who can help myself to solve this quandariation... =.="

i love you more than you could ever imagine.....

well... these days kinda moody... aikx...

cause things ain't rolling the way i wanted them to be...

i always tell my friends to get over the unhappy things but myself? it's not that easy... i'm unsure whether i can go through this anymore....

i found myself in the edge of hesitation.. i don't know whether i can forget about the unhappy things through just pretending happy... in school, when talking with friends, i was like laughing blissfully.. but i ain't that blissful... i'm not myself anymore... i can't discover the real me anymore... i'm lost inside.... i'm not her; yieujin; the one who used to become a happy go lucky girl...

i know.. each person especially my age right now will have to go through an awkward stage of adolescence as a step to progress to a more mature-minded teenager..

i also know.. things won't always become perfect as what you wanted them to be... they always against your will and you will have to solve things on your own; all by my own..

well... friends...
unspoken concern for you guys... i will love you guys till the end from the bottom of my heart...

i thought that you were different.... Bewildered.

all along, you are a friend or fiend???

i hurt someone... and i regretted...

it's not like i'm freak out of retaliation..
but it's guilt in me fears me..

he pretended to smile as if i can't see the hidden glum behind of it...
i'm bad but trying to be good... now that i regret... can i turn back time??

between us, is there anymore love? or just loathe?

this is how i feel at the very moment you broke my heart... and i finally knew the distraught feeling you had before when i hurt you...

you told me that you'll be happy too if i am...

you prayed for me so that i'll gain happiness....

you did each and every way to satisfy me...

you change yourself into a better person so that you'll impress me someday...

but those feelings weren't exist anymore...

those were the only days i feel so much comfortable with you... but things were different now... cause knowing now that you're not mine...


these green-colored words kept playing and penetrating my mind..

it's a song by fantasia barrino.. i love it....

Ran into an old friend yesterday
Caught me by surprise when he called my name
He was a familiar face, from a chapter in my past
Talked for a while, asked him how it's been
Said that he was seeing somebody and
Told me this was gonna last
Showing me her photograph

And all the feelings that I thought were gone
Came rushing back to me at once
Tried to smile and hide the way I felt
But I was thinking to myself

(Truth is) I never got over you
(Truth is) Wish I was standing in her shoes
(Truth is) And when it's all said and done
Guess I’m still in love with you

(Truth is) I never should have let you go
(Truth is) And it's killing me cuz now I know
(Truth is) And when it's all said and done
Guess I’m still in love with you

We reminisce on the way things used to be
Shared a couple laughs, shared some memories
Talked about the things that changed
Some for good and some for bad
Then he said good-bye and he paid for lunch
Promised that we'd always keep in touch
Grabbed my bags and grabbed my thoughts, walked away and that was that

Now the truth is it hurts but I know that the fault is mine
‘Cuz I let him go
Tried to get over it but it's messin' with my mind (Because I know)

I just gotta be honest, I guess, I-I guess, I’m still in love, in love, in love with you...


don't get me wrong.. i wrote this blog for behalf of my friend...
erm... maybe for mine too......

irrevocably in love with yieujin...

yesterday (4th of april 2009)

>> morning
- went to a have a morning walk in Menglembu Hill.. the air is kinda fresh and i got to sweat.. that's the best part... the bad was i had to wake up early in the morning... tired... after walked till 9am++, my family and i went to have our breakfast in a nearby restaurant.. *satisfied* buweee....

in the waterfall there enjoying... ^^ crystal-clear water wei... damn comfortable...

>> afternoon
- went to tuition then after tuition went to buy books in a book fair...

>> night
- went to education workshop held in my church... learn so much things!!! then now i'm dilemma-ing whether to choose mass com or accounting... aikx....

is that was friends are for??

you smiled

a wave of sadness filled in me

hidden grieve and unspoken blame

since then my eyes teared in silence.


you came back the moment you were gloomy

but lied when everything was okay

i hate you for not being honest to me.


you returned to me saying that everything is over

and need me 'cause loneliness stand by you.


i hate you for being so egotistic

and your selfishness never make me feel any better

i hate you for that.


finally i get the picture

i'm just a place for you to mutter your grieves

i'm no one.