i thought that you were different.... Bewildered.

all along, you are a friend or fiend???

i hurt someone... and i regretted...

it's not like i'm freak out of retaliation..
but it's guilt in me fears me..

he pretended to smile as if i can't see the hidden glum behind of it...
i'm bad but trying to be good... now that i regret... can i turn back time??

between us, is there anymore love? or just loathe?

this is how i feel at the very moment you broke my heart... and i finally knew the distraught feeling you had before when i hurt you...

you told me that you'll be happy too if i am...

you prayed for me so that i'll gain happiness....

you did each and every way to satisfy me...

you change yourself into a better person so that you'll impress me someday...

but those feelings weren't exist anymore...

those were the only days i feel so much comfortable with you... but things were different now... cause knowing now that you're not mine...


these green-colored words kept playing and penetrating my mind..

it's a song by fantasia barrino.. i love it....

Ran into an old friend yesterday
Caught me by surprise when he called my name
He was a familiar face, from a chapter in my past
Talked for a while, asked him how it's been
Said that he was seeing somebody and
Told me this was gonna last
Showing me her photograph

And all the feelings that I thought were gone
Came rushing back to me at once
Tried to smile and hide the way I felt
But I was thinking to myself

(Truth is) I never got over you
(Truth is) Wish I was standing in her shoes
(Truth is) And when it's all said and done
Guess I’m still in love with you

(Truth is) I never should have let you go
(Truth is) And it's killing me cuz now I know
(Truth is) And when it's all said and done
Guess I’m still in love with you

We reminisce on the way things used to be
Shared a couple laughs, shared some memories
Talked about the things that changed
Some for good and some for bad
Then he said good-bye and he paid for lunch
Promised that we'd always keep in touch
Grabbed my bags and grabbed my thoughts, walked away and that was that

Now the truth is it hurts but I know that the fault is mine
‘Cuz I let him go
Tried to get over it but it's messin' with my mind (Because I know)

I just gotta be honest, I guess, I-I guess, I’m still in love, in love, in love with you...


don't get me wrong.. i wrote this blog for behalf of my friend...
erm... maybe for mine too......