fcuking shit

i feel like i dont know you anymore...
i now only know that you cheated me for one whole year..
and
i thought you were different..
all along i was wrong.. wrong to believe in you..

i'm sad to know the truth that your love was just a lie..
all those promises are just shit and lies..

and now
i could only blame myself for being so damn stupid
thanks for betraying anyway

5/1/2011

temporarily, i love schooling because i get to see my beloved friends xD

after school, me and my friends; zhiweng, chris, weilun, chunsing, andrew, and jiachun went to first mapo to eat!! niceyy~ it's really cheap and we enjoyed to food :)

hope there's another time we gather and order many dishes eat together ^^ well, this is the 2nd time.. hope there's more chances to eat together like that.. loveyouguys! ^^

4/1/2011

so freaking happeee 'cause i get to gather with my EX schoolmates; yeeling, zhenyan, yeunkee, xinqi, yeewah, and xuiyee..

at first we went to grab our dinner in domino pizza xD for me, the taste was okay.. i prefer pizza hut though =X

then at the end we went to de garden and walk around that place and we really went crazy cam-whoring hahaha!

the people looked at us with those weird eyes 'cause we act like don't know people from which kampung.. but we really enjoy ourselves so we don't care about the people around us LOL

and one more scary thing is, yeunkee's driving skill.. ahma! really.. erm.. *no comment* hahaha!!

we went to dragon one at first to find something to drink but then we decided to change place 'cause we don't get that feel we wanted.. xD so we changed to paparich and have our drinks there :) that was really a great and awesome night i had... i miss them..

we already planned our next gathering steamboat in yeewah's house during chinese new year.. hope we'll have a blast on that night too! teehee!!

hopeyouarehappy :)

how i countdown new year 2011 =)

a new year, a new life! =)

i remember last year i countdown new year in genting highlands with first garden gang.. we watched fireworks and spend our happy time whole night and we slept only about 4 to 5 hours.. damn happy ler.. but this year's countdown is a little different..

ivan drive me to de garden and we had our tea time with friends in wong kok restaurant.. then i went to find my friends in paparich; zheng foong, zheng hoong, sin hong and his gf, sin wai and others i can't remember who.. LOL..

then i met yit li.. sat a while and chat then back to find ivan and finally we went to stadium to watch fireworks.. the road is full of cars. so freaking jam.. then we escaped to barroom.. whee~!

istillmissyou, ily.

l.o.v.e.l.y. :)

gor... nice day in parade with you..
ily ♥ :)
i will never forget about you

byebye year 2010 :'(

finally i'm back to blogging.. i totally left my blog dead as i'm so busy with my exams.. well.. i'm kind of lazy too actually xD

sadly, year 2010 is gonna end..

and i'm gonna start my upper six soon.. :( i'm really not ready yet for school.. it's like i just finished my year end examination..

anyway, i really did enjoy my days after exam even i went for work immediately the next day after the exam. i went to many places for work. we went place to place to promote DiGi.. lol.. we even went to cameron highlands :) fun but i really hate the flies there.. annoying :S

but because of this job i met back my old friend.. ivan :) and on 19th dec, we went to kizuna for dinner... teehee! then we went to the night market in bercham.. guess who i met? jaedy! i was shocked when he called my name lol.. glad to see him but he thin already..i almost can't recognise him..

oh ya! i also went to kl on the 24th of nov :) nice trip with schoolmates hehe.. and also went to kl with mom and sis on 14th of dec to shop for cny clothes.. wuhoo! i really enjoyed my holidays am i? kekeke~

and and and...
this year's christmas not bad ^^
i celebrated christmas eve in church then then then
went out with jean to our heaven life cafe :)

the next day on the christmas day, 25th of dec, i followed jean with her brother to celebrate christmas in secret garden.. :P i saw damien!
these few days slept quite late.. around 3am to 4am plus only sleep :( my panda eyes are getting worse... i might buy some skin care de le. hope more income coming in.. lol.. or need to save money to buy them.. :/

and lastly.. may God bless everyone i LOVE..
thank you Jesus.. love YOU as always :)

simple update... =P

i miss my friends lots~

努力为你改变了..
你呢？
永远爱你 :)
还有你们 ♥

recently, i just sleep in school... the weather is so damn hot that i fell sick.. erm.. but i'm a lot better now..

there's a few good friends who used to be my best buddies who actually be there for me when i needed them the most... once a good friend.. forever we're friends... i don't care whatever happens next, i'm still missing you guys.. you might think i've changed... well.. that's not wrong.. i did change... i'm more to my own now.. i don't know why.. it's not like i'm gonna forget you guys... it's just that things seem to be a lot different now..

i realized something... when people tells you that "friends forever", could that possibly happen? 'cause i really believe this at first.. but those who speak this to me abandoned me most for nothing.. not once or one person.. friends; they come and go..

i can't retrieve memories... that's why i try to appreciate what i have.. we've travel our adolescence journey together and been through so much bittersweet.. but in the end.. they leave...

i jealous that you met someone new.. that's the part i hate...

这几天都出去玩。。
玩到傻。。傻到变傻婆
哈哈哈
可是就快要考试了。。。 有一点点害怕。。 :(

~~

我的人最近变得比较乐观了。。
可是偶尔也会想些不开心的事情。。

曾经想过不再去想他
却还想要知道他的消息想知道他最近过得好不好。。

真的很想他。。。
没错。。因为我就是个大笨蛋！！=P

原来是这样。。。

today i felt HIM...
i stopped myself from falling tears... but those feelings were so hard to bear...
i cried.
i'm touched... but why??

:) i love Jesus.. but i'm still having questions in my mind...

又想你了。。

想要sms找你可是又怕你不复我
又怕会烦到你

你知不知道当你不回我信息的时候我很不开心？
因为我一直在想你是不是还在讨厌我呢

算了吧。。


关于我在学校理，
一开始到现在还是很不快乐

不知道几时开始我变得比较喜欢一个人静一静。。
我真的真的很不开心！！
我一直在想；谁会明白我的心情？
一直觉得想哭可是又不能。

我已经失去了乐观的我。。。很累了。。
心酸了。。。

你真的很绝情。。
不理我。。
真是个大坏蛋！

我好像对你有感觉了...

就是因为你愿意当我的傻瓜

就是因为当我很孤单的时候，你在有多远也愿意飞来找我

就是因为每次我真的很不开心，你会陪在我身边让我开心

就是因为你，我找回了信心

就是因为你，我过的每一日也不会觉得无聊

就是因为你，我才开始学会乱发脾气

就是因为你，我觉得上蒂对我好，让我能够遇见你

就是因为你，这段日子理我感到很辛福很快乐



就算没说出口，你对我那么好，我心理其实是很开心的。


你说我挡你像个傻瓜一样我觉得很心痛。我只是没想到我会让你这样觉得。
对不起，我那么自私。


我还记得那一天，我被人欺负的时候，我真的很想很想抱着你。可是又不想让你看到我哭的样子。

辛好那天你来找我，不然的话我不知道我该怎么办。我一直在想谁会来救我带走我。。因为那时候我真的不想留下在正在伤害我那班人。。

忍不著听到你关心我的声音在电话理就流泪了。

如果真的可以回到那时候的话，我想我会抱着你了。。


就是因为习惯了依靠你，不开心的时候去找你，我才会到现在那么想念你。


觉得很想见你因为我怕我会忘了你的样子；你常常对我微笑的样子。。

遇见你，我找回了微笑。
谢谢因为爱过我。我会永远记得的。

17th of may 2010

went to parade to buy some books for form 6... my great bro drive me there after school ^^... we had our lunch before walking throughout the day...
i finally bought a black colour dye for my hair... aiks.. but until now, i'm still heavy-hearted to dye my hair..
then he fetch me home. lovely day... miss him too =(


20th of may 2010

followed jeff's car to chatter in yik foong there and visit my friends again... it was a little different because i even visit the others too.. siew keong, cherry, MIT people and ah tai, ah keong =).. janice, mun mun, jean, jeff and i then flied to econsave and public bank and finally landed in parade.. hahaha... buy books again T^T have to become nerd d... then chit chat and had my dinner in kopitiam...

it was my sad day at the beginning..
wondering who will be there for me..
lucky i have them..
if not, i was all alone and had no where to go...
i just hate being alone...

10th of may 2010
it's my 1st day of school.. after school i followed jackson's car to McD to have our lunch then went home ^^

11th of may 2010
after school i followed jeff's car with jean to greentown mall.. find melvin and william at first but melvin went to kl deee... aiks... after chatting we went to greentown and had our lunch.. we walked to only two boutiques.. i didn't buy anything.. no money to shop T.T where else jean bought a bottom in leopard there... so expensive.. OMG...
finally we followed jeff and see him make tattoo.. haha.. nice er... i feel like i want one too... hoho...
after the rain stops only then we went back home.. i could count that as a fine day =)

12th of may 2010
after school, me and my friends followed bryan's car to old town kopitiam in greentown there to celebrate samuel's birthday ^^.. happy to see him anyway.. once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAM SAM =P

13th of may 2010
jackson fetch me back.. aiks.. his mom is quite pretty =)


14th of may 2010
went to yik foong to have my lunch in chatter.. samuel drives us there.. there was only us... wei lun, mok, zhi weng and samuel... then i went to MIT to have a peek on them.. well... it's better to say that i went to visit them.. really really miss them T^T..
i bumped into vincent when i walked to the bus stop to wait for bus back home.. fortunately, he fetch me that day.. haha..

it's a fine day that i will never took for granted for...

15th of may 2010
nothing much to do.. just drove jean out to yum cha and had our little chit chat for 4 hours! =P


16th of may 2010
after church, i drove jean to join ken and the gang to play badminton... thought of having some exercise 'cause i feel like myself is getting fatter! instead of consuming less food, i went for exercise.. healthy huh.. :)