went for a date.. haha..

mok, trinie, terk terk and me.

at first, mok appeared. my heart nearly jumped out.. "hak dou me".. xD
then met terk terk. he was searching for us from downstairs then he went up then went back down again.. hehe... *playing the fool*.. erm... certainly not by our intention.. hahax..

after about an hour, we walked around following zoey to search for a pair of shoes.. at last, she bought a pair of sneakers.. cute and nice.. well of course.. i suggested her to buy those.. xD

omG i damn miss that bag!!
i found a bag that i like so much.. but too expensive.. aikx...
byebye baggie... hmm~


erm.. i was kinda moody today.. thought i had left out mok but he seems to be very close friend with terk terk.. hahax..

dear fine day,
...


yours faithfully,
yieuyieu

i... me... but... just.. her..

living the way i am now

waiting for miracle

believing someday

i'm not alone anymore.



don't want things get unclear

better off kept silence

i need you

your ears wide open.

love you

i am...

miss you

i am...

got insane after spm trial.. buhbye trial !! xD

18th of september 2009
early in the morning, went out to have breakfast with zoey and trinie..
then straight to jusco. long time ago since i went there.. nothing much changed.
we did window shopping..


nice background huh... xD

then they went back. i waited bunny come.
we search for something. then go to tuition. thankx for the ride ^^.

later then go enjoy with sis, and godbro, simon.
haha... thankx for the ride simon and the treat also... bluek xp
unforgettable song (tonight's gonna be a good night).. 'cause the night was really good (== duh!!)
slept at 3++am eh.. eyes become panda. OMG!


my hand is on the left... the many bulu one is zoey's... wakaka


delicious xD


my babe is a little drunk.. boohoo


yuhoooo!!


19th of september 2009
went out with buddy mok. watch final destination 4.. many disgusting scenes. scared me.. but i laughed the whole time watching. haha. then met rinlyn, christina, jamie, yuen jing and jia moon (i guess this is the spelling) bluek.. just know her the day before. very happy to meet someone nice like her.. ^^

then went back by taxi with jamie le... miss her oohhh muack!!


lots of love,
yieujin

12th of september 2009
went to polo ground with friends..
thank you mok 'cause always fetch me here and there... wakaka

after that went home... waiting for the time to go tuition.
as usual... chat with friends..
sleepy during the class...
then break time...
here goes the trailer... "Legion" movie...
must watch!!!

oh ya... good luck in exam result pui yieu!! plus plus oil!! ^^

nerdy overcomes me.. xD

the whole week before the spm trial, went to the library..
cant believe i'm that hardworking right... lol
but.. most of the time.. chatting with my friend... anyway, dun get me wrong... we studied too!!

everythings fine for me...
finally ended...

but...

NERDYs are cool!! xDD

giggling

22nd of august 2009
on this day, all the coordinators for the mamma mia concert, ctpg and misters gathered for the appreciation dinner in Lee Hou Fook.
i'm the first person to reach. aikx.. pity me.. called wayne then he said that he's on the way.. so i waited.. sobs.. after 5 minutes, there they are.. nick, mun fei and wayne... then comes gavin.. men in black... buahaha...
4 men versus 1 pretty girl.. me.. lol.. xD
wait for the rest of them.. then we went in together..
after ate, all of us took pictures together.. all became insane and non-stop laughing... lol...
food is okie but too full to finish everything.. the leftovers we da bao... lol

what a wonderful moment to flashback...

today. a special day. sunday.

last week while i'm having much problems to face, i can feel the presence of Him.
i didn't pray. cause i was too focus in my problems. that's a huge mistake.

then i went to church that day. i cried continuously in church.
well, of course many people were looking at me. everyone asking why my eyes were swollen.
so embarrassed.

pastor pray for me, i felt the healing. a great feeling that filled my heart and comforting me.
never cried because of that problem again.
but still, gloom never leaves.
till now.

i used to think i'm strong. but actually i'm not on certain things. for instance, when people hurts my heart.

i love Him. but i egotistically put my focus on my problems rather than Him.


on this day, 9th of august 2009.
i saw a vision. He gives out His hands.
and i put down all my burdens and worries behind.
peace i found.
i followed Him to a place. nothing else around except water and sky.
i was walking on the water!
then everything went white when i saw clouds around Us.
He smiled at me. i felt i'm cared. loved.
i saw a door in front and opened it.
people that i came across before and people i've known were there.
even the ones i love and important in my life.
smiles i've never seen carved on these faces.

it is the most beautiful thing i've ever seen and imagined.
a gift that He gives to me. which i wanted so much. undefinable~
~LOVE..

He never leaves me and loves me. which made me feels life so much meaningful and never fear of obstacles that i'll be facing in future.
and lastly,

i love HIM.

went to chee yan's house and followed his car to tuition..
sat at the front.. at least i can concentrate better..
without me, they're happier..

after tuition, went to parade to buy things.. then walked with my mom..
we're doing window shopping.. xD
then, there held a singing competition.. oldies..
but oldies are very romantic than nowadays songs..
i nearly cried when i heard a man's singing.. damn touching as i'm flashing back at those moments i'm been-through-ing these few weeks... i did promise someone not to think about those but i really can't help it..
already been hurt and betrayed..
how can i smile? well.. just have to fake it.
face the reality..
things happened, can't pretend nothing has happened.

i admit i'm avoiding her, just never wanted to be hurt again..
boo shit.. after all the lies.
she's giving vent on me. what she had said, i don't want to mention.
cause those scoldings are only use to scold b***hes.
i'm hurt this time, not fully because what you've said and done, but also the before this; the total sham..

thank you chris.. cause being there for me when i cried..
you said you will never leave me
but i don't know whether i still can believe that or not..
cause all i believe is only myself now.
anyway, i still love you..
never forget that you're the best buddy i've known. i kid you not.
just wanna let you know that's all.. from the bottom of my heart.. muackx..

sarcastically, i've been cheating myself..
recently, no cries.
but only memories leaving a big cut in the end.
although i never hope that our friendship will end in this way, but it did.
i'm deeply hurt mostly probably because i appreciate this friendship too much.
at last.. exasperated by it...

sometimes, i wonder
while i sad-ing, what they're doing.. is it when i'm back at the corner there thinking about those sadness but their enjoying happily over the other side there? i guess not... too hope not..

anyway,
after those flash backs, back to the reality..

waited for my dad to come and fetch me and mom..
while waiting, both of us sat in coral the cafe there to have some drinks..
chat a while, dad called.. and we went back. having our dinner at 5pm++..
what a happy family.. ^^
too bad my elder sis weren't with us that day..

have a nice day pui yieu..
be happy always.. hahahaha

What was your

1.last beverage
biscuit+milo

2.last phone call
sook fun

3.last text message
jia fa

4.last song u listened to
jolin- tian kong

5.last time u cried
this morning


Have you ever

6.dated someone twice
ya.. i admit that

7.been cheated on
it's impossible to say no..

8.kissed someone and regretted it
no regrets...

9.lost someone special
erm.. i guess so...

10.been depressed
ya.. especially these few days..

11.been drunk and threw up
never

List 3 favourite colors
12.green
13.yellow
14.black


this year have you:(2009)

15.made a new friend
yup.. hearts them a lot

16.fallen out of love
nope

17.laughed until you cried
sometimes xp

18.met someone who changed you
yea..

19.found out who your true fren were
dunno

20.found out someone was talking about you
i guess so..

21.kisses anyone on your friends list
huh?

22.how many people on your friends list do you know in real life
well... i didn't count them.. lots ^^

23. How many kids do you want to have
erm.. depends on my mood... wakaka

24.do you have any pets
not once..

25.do you want to change your name
no... my name is special ^^

26.what do you do for your last birthday
hang out with darls

27.what time did you wake up today
7.40am

28.what was you doing last midnight
sleeping

29.name something you CANNOT wait for
N78 xp

30.last time u saw your mother
this afternoon..

31. What is one thing you wish you could change about your life
nothing.. my life makes me a better person..

32.what are you listening to right now
cartoonist speaking in the movie

33.have u ever talked to a person named Tom
err...no

34.what's getting on your nerves right now
nothing.. calmer after what had happened this morning.

35.most visited webpage
friendster.com

36.what is your real name
Lai Pui Yieu

37.nicknames
yieujin

38.relationship status
single

39.zodiac sign
pisces

40.male or female
female

41.elementary
srk tarcisian convent

42.middle school
smk tarcisian convent

43.high school
i'm not that level yet.. haha

44.hair colour
black

45.long or short
long

46.height
158cm

47.do you have crush on someone
to be honest.. no..

48.what do you like about yourself
everything

49.piercings
ears only

50.tattoos
not yet.. haha

51.rightly or leftly
what does this means?


Firsts

52.first sugery
no

53.piercing
ears

54.first bestfriend
jia hui.. tadika time

55.first sport u joined
swimming

56.first vacation
singapore

58.first pairs of trainers
forgot too


RIGHT NOW

59.eating
ya.. biscuit

60.drinking
milo

61.1 am about to
iron school uniform

62.listening
music

63.waiting
nothing


YOUR FUTURE

64.want kids
of coz

65.get married
yea

66.career
duno


WHICH IS BETTER?

67.lips or eye
both

68.hugs or kisses
hugs

69.shorter or taller
taller

70.older or younger
younger

71.romantic or spontaneous
spontaneous

72.nice stomach or nice arms
stomach

73.sensitive or loud
err..duno

74.hook-up or relationship
relationship

75.trouble maker or hesitant
hesitant


HAVE YOU EVER:

76.kissed a stranger
never

77.drank hard liquor
ya..

78.lost glasses/contact
ya

79.sex on first date
no of coz...

80.broken someone's heart
ya... i feel really really bad...

82.been arrestred
never

83.turned someone down
ya

84.cried when someone died
yea..

85.fallen for a friend
i guess not


DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

86.yourself
always

87.miracles
ya

88.love at first sight
not really

89.heaven
yup

90.santa claus
no

91.kiss on first date
no

92.angels
yea


ANSWER TRUTHFULLY

94.Had more than 1 girlfriend/boyfriend at a time
no

95.did u sing today
yea!!

96.ever cheated on somebody
depends

97.If you could go back in time, how far would you go
not sure if i want to go back in time... if yes, to each and every happy moments..

98.If you could pick a day from last year and relive it, what would it be
trip to johor i guess..

99.Are you afraid of falling in love?
ya... what if the opposite betrays me?..

100.posting this as 100 truths
99%

101. At the end, you need to choose 15 people to be tagged
~cheyan
~christopher
~steph wang
~samuel
~zoey
~ivory
~jackson
~wai keong
~mindy
~lipas
~simon
~see mun
~szekuns
~sze ngou
~william khoo

past is past....

really some centuries since i updated my bloggie.. buweeeee xD

erm.. thankx for the concern to all my friends anyway..
mood swings these few days..
but i was kind of relief for what had happened...

sometimes i ask myself..
why should i try so hard to fit in
into someone else's world while i suffer in it?


it's like you'll never feel good if you try so hard to fit in into a shoe
which you actually can't...

i finally realise...
and let go all the burden..



people change,

time runs unrewind..


we'll meet new people,

gain life experience.


find new hope,

and true convenience..


hardships we have to been through to grow..

that's when

only we'll learn to appreciate...


especially something priceless and difficult to earn in a lifetime...
love your friends
'cause that's the precious gift we can gain while we're still having them with us....


through all the predicaments,

i often reminisce all the way things used to be..

which turns out to be the best

moments and memories..


moments & memories ^^


life's like a piano...

white keys are happy moments and

black keys are sad moments..

but only life becomes meaningful when both keys are played together..

just never forget to be happy for everything...

here,
to all my friends,
i'll always love you.
and you all.
~hugx.

20th of june 2009
such an unforgettable day.. working on the drama show things hastily..
but along the process, it was fun!! ^^
being one of the backstage crew made me feel like i'm a small part of the show... = "keh leh feh" only.. hahax...
undefinable feelings... one simple word; enjoyable!!
after the show finally reach its end, we all went to eat. it's supper.
anyway.. i love them all..
sincerely~


27th of june 2009
erm... not really having a good time.. christopher unhappy eh... haix... made me feel sad too...
anyway.. i guess he's alright now... hope that he wouldn't be sad again ^^
love yea chris~ lol.. he's my buddy kay.... then left me and jean only. headed for chatter to have our breakfast+lunch... what a simple day...


28th of june 2009
watch transformers 2 in jusco together with cheyan, wei lun and sze ngou...
haha.. thankx to sze ngou and wei lun... 'cause they're the ones who fight for the tickets... buahaha...
so happy when i get 3 packets of m&m!! ^^ thankx cheyan and wei lun!! love you guys ^^
after we watch the movie, continue with our lunch...
it's a great day i could tell...

how nice

if you are with me

even till the bitter end

and

never crack

my fragile heart.


you have gave me once

a courage to stand up

to face the world

yelling

saying myself is the best

not caring about

other's assumption.


that's why

i adore you

very much.


but

nothing will be the same

again.


all because

you

have changed.


here

i just wanna say

i still love you.


hoping our friendship

never messed up

from

the beginning.

14th june 2009
erm... went church as always ^^ God bless!!
then night went meeting again.. ^^ omg! i love their voices.. then went eat!! yahoo... my childhood eating place... never go there so long... that day went there with me, serene, qian, kah yun, ker ting, mun yee and her brother and auntie. happy happy family.. then went back to their house.. aikx.. waited for my mom to come and fetch me.. til 12am swt.. they gotta sacrifice their sleep although kinda late liao... haha


15th june 2009
school reopens... aikx.. sleepy... forced to wake up early... lol
kinda happy see so many friends.. erm.. when thinking about the exam results... wakakakakaka.. quite disappointed..
went mcdonalds after school.. then saw chee ken with his friends... then met chee fong and saw woon.. joined them.. ^^ talks a lot and many funny things happened.. haha
then walked to tuition alone.. saw samuel holding his girl's hand crossing the road... to bad he can't see me... anyway... they're sweet... *envy*...
reached tuition then sit with my gang... 2lin, jul and jee an.. haha... =.=" got teased again... grrr... anyway.. happy day~


16th of june 2009
after school went to eat in rasa sayang.. with jul, wai wai, 2lin and ws.. so "yit lau".. ^^
one happy day pass again just like dat~



all i have is you

since the day i left you

is the day

i chose to give up

on you.



wanna show you

i can be

happier

and

not distraught

being without

you.



showing you

that

i can live better

although

without you.

went to parade with jean... well.. she drive me go... haha... psst... nearly got a heart attack when she drive... buahaha
erm... i would give her pass... not too bad... just that she has to restart the engine in the middle of the road thrice.. lol

reached there, walk around with steph, sze ngou, jean.. ate then went to the imax.. haix.. left for dead again... =.=" lol

then me and jean went out a while to search for coke for kah chun in kbox there.. then went to find joey.. erm... not to mention that she shops... omg.. when i see the price tag i was like.... gosh!! hard earn money just gone that way...



erm... sze ngou shy.. wakakaka


jean and me take pic while waiting... hahaha


me and steph.. took while tea time in kopitiam.. xD

nerd day!! xp

guess who's this... wakakaka

nerd for a day.. finally.. haix... hope that the school won't reopen so fast...
today went mcd study with friend...
arrive there, cheyan sat behind me.. shocked is the only word i could describe.. then stephanie back from johor went parade with her.. ish.. can't just leave my friend there... then have to study there with him... anyway... i miss yea steph!!

then met wei lun, zhi weng and christopher... aikx... anime fans... talking non stop bout it.. then they left for tuition...only me and mok study...
and bad........ don't wanna mention... humiliating i could tell happened!...


frustration bit by bit growing
sweat beads streamed down whe you're near me
chances only once in a blue moon
if not you i miss and appreciate then who else would it be..

i love you my darls~