sista.. i know i update my bloggie quite slow.. but it's all because i'm busy with exam...

my evidence of me studying pengajian am; SH Cheong's notes kekeke :P

a new day will come :)
can't wait for holidays!! wohooo!!

something i found :)

22/4/2011

went to eat bak kut teh with chris, zhi weng, jia chun and jackson :)
that restaurant's name is shun lee









29/4/2011

mushroom soup i had for lunch in chatter heeess =)
not ordering rice or noodles cause i'm on a plan.. eat little with more meals :P



opps.. my polo watch there hehe

end of midyear exam: 2 more days to go
holidays to begin: 9 more days to go

i forgive you :)

XOXO

don't know why i feel like writing a blog today :)

this morning, i went breakfast with ivan :)
awesome morning.. skipped school just to study and online at home... heees...

watching bubzbeauty's videos.. she has lots of great videos. will catch up on her videos every week :D

mybestie
i feel that i don't hate her even how bad she treated me.. aiks.. i miss jean and ivory.. i bet ivory is enjoying her college life.. hope she'll hang out with me when she comes back on June.


things to do few months soon: (temporarily)

---ivan told me that he wanted to go taiwan and asked me to go with him.. hope that i really can go there 'cause i never went to that place before... again.. need my parents' permission for that.. chris went there before and told me that the place is a good place for food and to shop. clothes are cheap and food is delicious .. sounds like a heaven to me.. whee~!

---going for a trip with friends. might be to penang.. erm.. i guess this trip is to build the last memory for us before everyone separates.. hope after our form6 life, we can still keep in touch.. love you guys!!

---go to chemor for curry rice! my fav!! i can't wait.. wey you all! wait meeeee ^^!

---$ a job $

exam fever =.=

having headache recently.. i guess it's because i'm studying too much and the hot weather..

anyway.. good luck friends and
take care of your health too! :D

end of midyear exam: 10 more days to go
holidays to begin: 18 more days to go

blurcase disease

date: 3/5/2010
location: class 6AK2


chun sing, christopher, zhi weng, wei lun and jia chun were talking.. i eavesdropped and heard they talked about obama and osama..



me: obama and osama sounded so familiar la the name.. osama was the terrorist.. but who's obama?? his brother ar?


all of them: *gazed at me at the same time* you don't know who?? they're brothers la..


me: err.. don't cheat me.. as i remember it's the same person right? i think i know him..


zhi weng: of course you know him la.. he don't know you only ma.. you didn't read the news?? osama is killed la..


chris: obama is the president lo...


zhi weng: nonono.. osama is the president..


me: == *confusing me la they both. looking at zhi weng* don't cheat me laa.. obama is the president..


zhi weng: which country?


me: *thinking and finally remembered* america lo..


swt... i think i study too much until i forgotten who's obama.. and i thought obama is osama's brother.. OMG...

(please don't sue me for my stupidity, i got the fact in the end. thankyou.)

today's my little brother birthday :)

MARCUS LOW,
HAPPEEE 17TH BURFFDAEE :P

our best picture taken on 25/7/2010 at 12.27am
heheheeee



happy to have a good and love me de sai lou..
i remember the first time we met was in king ho's house then guess his name hoho :P

then we FGG gang went to genting highlands together..
i remember we (ken, michael, kin choy, me and some more i cant remember who ><) didn't sleep one night just to find this naughty boy.. he was sad and tell me what happened..
hope that we FGG gang will go for a trip again this year.. ^^

no matter what happen, you're still my good brother.. love ya :)

you're my good friend.. sorry that i sometimes said something harsh but that only happens when you irritate me.... hahaha..

anyway sorry le k chris :) friends for life yehh!!

in the end, i lost a friend.

if we can't solve a problem, all we can do is to live with it..

i feel like my life is in an utter mess.. along this journey i can't deny that i really learn a lot.. by facing all those obstacles, i appreciate things more but i do sometimes also take things for granted. and yea.. i admit..

frienship, family and relationship.. i learned a lot from these chapters..

sometimes i'm wondering.. do parents worry about their children? i mean will they really care if their children sad or in grief? why don't i feel my parents give a damn even they know i'm unhappy? maybe i'd been rebellious and less communicate with them.. but at least i tried... haix.. i don't know when i can really sit down and talk with them about what i'm thinking and other stuffs that i would like to share with them.. they're like strangers to me and so am i to them..
they always think that they know what i'm thinking but they're totally wrong.. this happens all the time because we never really communicate and know each other better.. so, there's no need to say, things go worse when they thought i'm doing things in a negative way which is not.. yea; cut it short... misunderstanding happens all the time..

about my friends... true friends will support whenever you need them right? haix... i had this best friend of mine.. she's like a stranger to me now.. even she don't trust me.. she thought i changed and fooled a guy.. duh... i know her longer than the guy does but she seems to be much more closer with him than me.. so i guess that's why she's on his side when there's an argument between me and him.. she always thinks that he's a good guy.. well yea.. he is.. but it's just he did things in a wrong way and hurts a lot of people but he didn't know.. i don't blame him for this because he got hurt 'cause of me.. i was the cause of this and made everyone suffer like hell.. even i'm suffering too.. i have feelings..
i don't know you believe me or not.. but just don't simply judge things when you only listened to one side story.. i've nothing to say if you believe them instead of me because i thought you would understand me better than anyone else.. i'm immensely disappointed.. all you think about is his feelings.. what about mine? i really hesitate your words when you said you miss me or even the time you convincing your friends about me being your best friend...

by the way, looking forward to happiness is the most important for now..

and yea...

thanks chun sing and chris.. not forgetting ivan too :)

:)

there's really a lot things happened to me recently.. really a lot..

i dont even know how to smile anymore.. but to fake a smile or even a laugh.. haix..
i feel like everything of me is different. i want back the same old me. where can i find her?

i'm really unhappy and wanna cry everything out. but that doesn't change a thing and all i can do is just to let time heals.. i'm really sorry and feel so guilty to whoever i've hurt or hurted. it's all my fault beginning these problems.

no one could ever understand how i feel but myself.. that's the fact.

each and every day i tell myself not to think of the past 'cause it'll just keep hurting me. what can i do to make it up to everyone? i'm useless and he's right.

haix.. i really pray that all these can stop even my tears for these.

i'm really happy being in school but whenever i'm alone, it goes back to the same where it was. can anyone even think of my feelings? i really tried to tolerate to my best limit but it ruined everything and making things worse and i can't turn back..

these are partially a life of mine to grow. positively thinking, even how painstaking everything was, i can only tell myself to learn from mistakes and grow from them. but so, i'm still bewildering...

sometimes i feel like i'm really out of my mind. i think many times but thing doesn't come to an end even till now. i don't know how to end it. i want something badly but i get the torture of it in return. haix.. i really don't know if a suicidal can solve a person's problem or problems. however, i'm lucky to have the rationality telling me IT DOESNT.

to really get that something, is it already my time to own it? i don't know. but GOD knows.

fcuking shit

i feel like i dont know you anymore...
i now only know that you cheated me for one whole year..
and
i thought you were different..
all along i was wrong.. wrong to believe in you..

i'm sad to know the truth that your love was just a lie..
all those promises are just shit and lies..

and now
i could only blame myself for being so damn stupid
thanks for betraying anyway

5/1/2011

temporarily, i love schooling because i get to see my beloved friends xD

after school, me and my friends; zhiweng, chris, weilun, chunsing, andrew, and jiachun went to first mapo to eat!! niceyy~ it's really cheap and we enjoyed to food :)

hope there's another time we gather and order many dishes eat together ^^ well, this is the 2nd time.. hope there's more chances to eat together like that.. loveyouguys! ^^

4/1/2011

so freaking happeee 'cause i get to gather with my EX schoolmates; yeeling, zhenyan, yeunkee, xinqi, yeewah, and xuiyee..

at first we went to grab our dinner in domino pizza xD for me, the taste was okay.. i prefer pizza hut though =X

then at the end we went to de garden and walk around that place and we really went crazy cam-whoring hahaha!

the people looked at us with those weird eyes 'cause we act like don't know people from which kampung.. but we really enjoy ourselves so we don't care about the people around us LOL

and one more scary thing is, yeunkee's driving skill.. ahma! really.. erm.. *no comment* hahaha!!

we went to dragon one at first to find something to drink but then we decided to change place 'cause we don't get that feel we wanted.. xD so we changed to paparich and have our drinks there :) that was really a great and awesome night i had... i miss them..

we already planned our next gathering steamboat in yeewah's house during chinese new year.. hope we'll have a blast on that night too! teehee!!

hopeyouarehappy :)

how i countdown new year 2011 =)

a new year, a new life! =)

i remember last year i countdown new year in genting highlands with first garden gang.. we watched fireworks and spend our happy time whole night and we slept only about 4 to 5 hours.. damn happy ler.. but this year's countdown is a little different..

ivan drive me to de garden and we had our tea time with friends in wong kok restaurant.. then i went to find my friends in paparich; zheng foong, zheng hoong, sin hong and his gf, sin wai and others i can't remember who.. LOL..

then i met yit li.. sat a while and chat then back to find ivan and finally we went to stadium to watch fireworks.. the road is full of cars. so freaking jam.. then we escaped to barroom.. whee~!

istillmissyou, ily.