If you FORGIVE others, you FORGIVE yourself.

so much of conflicts happened these days. however, i choose to forgive..

last night i went to a Christian event held in Grand Kampar Hotel.. i was really excited when i knew about the event. 'cause i felt like i've been spending so much time for myself and friends and boyfie but did not spare some time to get near to God. i felt like the relationship between me and God have really gone farer.. yea.. relationship.. people might think that being a Christian is a religion but the truth is that you are bonding a relationship between yourself with Father God.

i attend the event with Trinie (sis) and reached there about 7.45pm.. i can really feel a deep touch within my heart the moment i stepped into the ballroom where they held the event.. i feel God's presence and tears are flowing down my cheeks non stop...

i believe that He's real because i really experienced His help for so many times already and NOT like what other people say that i believe is because i'm brain-washed.

i still remember that a pastor who gave a talk last night said that we should forgive. He talked about his experience about how stubborn he was that he did not forgive someone from his past for 3 years. After 3 years, he finally let go.

He said, "When you don't forgive someone, it's like you are holding a knife; hold onto the sharp place. The more anger you have, the tighter you are holding the knife and the more hurt you are, the more blood you bleed. Imagine if you hate someone for 3 years and you are holding the knife hurting yourself and bleeding for 3 years. It's enough. Why don't you forgive and let go the knife?"

So, i was recently having too much of conflicts and i normally forgive but when if the person that mean so much to you hurt you again and again, how to forgive? In the end when i calm down, i think about the problem again. It was actually a small matter and so i forgive. However, what has been done by that person to hurt you, has been done. Probably i won't care too much about that person and don't want to be too close with that person anymore.

Finally i think about my best friend again. No one can ever replace her in my heart. She's my best friend since Standard 1 and until now and forever. 

When you take someone close to you for granted,

they get hurt, tired and leave.

And nothing will back to the same way as how it always had.

Appreciate, don't depreciate.