i'm just the girl who loves you ♥

went to chee yan's house and followed his car to tuition..
sat at the front.. at least i can concentrate better..
without me, they're happier..

after tuition, went to parade to buy things.. then walked with my mom..
we're doing window shopping.. xD
then, there held a singing competition.. oldies..
but oldies are very romantic than nowadays songs..
i nearly cried when i heard a man's singing.. damn touching as i'm flashing back at those moments i'm been-through-ing these few weeks... i did promise someone not to think about those but i really can't help it..
already been hurt and betrayed..
how can i smile? well.. just have to fake it.
face the reality..
things happened, can't pretend nothing has happened.

i admit i'm avoiding her, just never wanted to be hurt again..
boo shit.. after all the lies.
she's giving vent on me. what she had said, i don't want to mention.
cause those scoldings are only use to scold b***hes.
i'm hurt this time, not fully because what you've said and done, but also the before this; the total sham..

thank you chris.. cause being there for me when i cried..
you said you will never leave me
but i don't know whether i still can believe that or not..
cause all i believe is only myself now.
anyway, i still love you..
never forget that you're the best buddy i've known. i kid you not.
just wanna let you know that's all.. from the bottom of my heart.. muackx..

sarcastically, i've been cheating myself..
recently, no cries.
but only memories leaving a big cut in the end.
although i never hope that our friendship will end in this way, but it did.
i'm deeply hurt mostly probably because i appreciate this friendship too much.
at last.. exasperated by it...

sometimes, i wonder
while i sad-ing, what they're doing.. is it when i'm back at the corner there thinking about those sadness but their enjoying happily over the other side there? i guess not... too hope not..

anyway,
after those flash backs, back to the reality..

waited for my dad to come and fetch me and mom..
while waiting, both of us sat in coral the cafe there to have some drinks..
chat a while, dad called.. and we went back. having our dinner at 5pm++..
what a happy family.. ^^
too bad my elder sis weren't with us that day..

have a nice day pui yieu..
be happy always.. hahahaha