today i felt HIM...
i stopped myself from falling tears... but those feelings were so hard to bear...
i cried.
i'm touched... but why??

:) i love Jesus.. but i'm still having questions in my mind...

又想你了。。

想要sms找你可是又怕你不复我
又怕会烦到你

你知不知道当你不回我信息的时候我很不开心？
因为我一直在想你是不是还在讨厌我呢

算了吧。。


关于我在学校理，
一开始到现在还是很不快乐

不知道几时开始我变得比较喜欢一个人静一静。。
我真的真的很不开心！！
我一直在想；谁会明白我的心情？
一直觉得想哭可是又不能。

我已经失去了乐观的我。。。很累了。。
心酸了。。。

你真的很绝情。。
不理我。。
真是个大坏蛋！

我好像对你有感觉了...

就是因为你愿意当我的傻瓜

就是因为当我很孤单的时候，你在有多远也愿意飞来找我

就是因为每次我真的很不开心，你会陪在我身边让我开心

就是因为你，我找回了信心

就是因为你，我过的每一日也不会觉得无聊

就是因为你，我才开始学会乱发脾气

就是因为你，我觉得上蒂对我好，让我能够遇见你

就是因为你，这段日子理我感到很辛福很快乐



就算没说出口，你对我那么好，我心理其实是很开心的。


你说我挡你像个傻瓜一样我觉得很心痛。我只是没想到我会让你这样觉得。
对不起，我那么自私。


我还记得那一天，我被人欺负的时候，我真的很想很想抱着你。可是又不想让你看到我哭的样子。

辛好那天你来找我，不然的话我不知道我该怎么办。我一直在想谁会来救我带走我。。因为那时候我真的不想留下在正在伤害我那班人。。

忍不著听到你关心我的声音在电话理就流泪了。

如果真的可以回到那时候的话，我想我会抱着你了。。


就是因为习惯了依靠你，不开心的时候去找你，我才会到现在那么想念你。


觉得很想见你因为我怕我会忘了你的样子；你常常对我微笑的样子。。

遇见你，我找回了微笑。
谢谢因为爱过我。我会永远记得的。

17th of may 2010

went to parade to buy some books for form 6... my great bro drive me there after school ^^... we had our lunch before walking throughout the day...
i finally bought a black colour dye for my hair... aiks.. but until now, i'm still heavy-hearted to dye my hair..
then he fetch me home. lovely day... miss him too =(


20th of may 2010

followed jeff's car to chatter in yik foong there and visit my friends again... it was a little different because i even visit the others too.. siew keong, cherry, MIT people and ah tai, ah keong =).. janice, mun mun, jean, jeff and i then flied to econsave and public bank and finally landed in parade.. hahaha... buy books again T^T have to become nerd d... then chit chat and had my dinner in kopitiam...

it was my sad day at the beginning..
wondering who will be there for me..
lucky i have them..
if not, i was all alone and had no where to go...
i just hate being alone...

10th of may 2010
it's my 1st day of school.. after school i followed jackson's car to McD to have our lunch then went home ^^

11th of may 2010
after school i followed jeff's car with jean to greentown mall.. find melvin and william at first but melvin went to kl deee... aiks... after chatting we went to greentown and had our lunch.. we walked to only two boutiques.. i didn't buy anything.. no money to shop T.T where else jean bought a bottom in leopard there... so expensive.. OMG...
finally we followed jeff and see him make tattoo.. haha.. nice er... i feel like i want one too... hoho...
after the rain stops only then we went back home.. i could count that as a fine day =)

12th of may 2010
after school, me and my friends followed bryan's car to old town kopitiam in greentown there to celebrate samuel's birthday ^^.. happy to see him anyway.. once again, HAPPY BIRTHDAY SAM SAM =P

13th of may 2010
jackson fetch me back.. aiks.. his mom is quite pretty =)


14th of may 2010
went to yik foong to have my lunch in chatter.. samuel drives us there.. there was only us... wei lun, mok, zhi weng and samuel... then i went to MIT to have a peek on them.. well... it's better to say that i went to visit them.. really really miss them T^T..
i bumped into vincent when i walked to the bus stop to wait for bus back home.. fortunately, he fetch me that day.. haha..

it's a fine day that i will never took for granted for...

15th of may 2010
nothing much to do.. just drove jean out to yum cha and had our little chit chat for 4 hours! =P


16th of may 2010
after church, i drove jean to join ken and the gang to play badminton... thought of having some exercise 'cause i feel like myself is getting fatter! instead of consuming less food, i went for exercise.. healthy huh.. :)

i quit my job last month to prepare for school in a few more days time!!
anderson, i'm coming~ =P

last monday i went for breakfast with elson then bumped into jean and janice... ^^
love them lots!!
then i went to school to take my form 6 letter.. then elson fetch me back while himself going to shop for his man stuff.. wakaka..

in this whole week i cleaned my house...
tiring and sakit belakang.. want some massage T.T

hopefully everything goes fine in school soon...


kinda miss my colleagues *mau huggies from them*
my colleagues:-

bryan>> misses his muscles xD

randy>> misses his jokes and put put xD

elson>> misses he treats de teh suet xD

goldberg>> misses the way he talks and walks xD


oh ya... watched iron man 2 with william and melvin... it was kinda ok for me... we ate supper in 'tong sui gai' before we went for the movie.. you can say that that's a lovely day (^^,)

yesterday watched ip man 2 with wai kit.. so touching eh... it's a movie worth-watching heess...

about my driving... erm... seems a little drunk when i drive.. but never mind.. i'll practise more!! =)

28/4/2010

after work, i followed wai kit's car to barroom... we went to celebrate siew keong's birthday...
i don't know what i was trying to do.. i guess i'm not that happy that night... anyway, enjoy the party after forcing myself not to think about ***.. i'm so damn bewildered by those feelings; regret, guiltiness and etc...
as i remember, i followed elson's car back.. too bad he didn't join us =( i was too tired that i asleep in his car... aiks... kinda embarrassing...

sorryifididthingsthatresentyou.

24/3/2010

one of my happiest days.. after work, me and my colleagues went to voodoo.. we actually went there to attend the "Asus Night"... but elson reached my place here at 9.45pm.. erm... my point is, the party end at 10pm... so, tiffany, bryan, elson and i just eat those leftovers... huhu...

however then, we spent our time chatting and taking self-loving pictures (^^,)..
all of us went to see ah fei and ah jin play snooker after that... cool and funny by the way... hahas... i remember i sms-ing and on the phone with ivan..

after everything almost end, the MIT Technology people went to gather in the restaurant nearby to have our supper... me and tiffany went to order the food; yau yu ng choi & chicken satay.. my stomach at that time could nearly burst.. eww...

then went back home when everyone started to feel tired...




which is the best couple picture? HAHAHAHA

i'm so sorry for taking things for granted... imreallysorry
missyoutoobytheway

3/4/2010

hang out with my seniors.. huhu.. ^^ celebrate pei ling's birthday.. she looks cute that day =) all girls must wear skirt or dress on that day... that's the rule.. kekeke..

we spent our day sing k till the evening.. then me and ashley went to shop after they went back.. such a fine day though tiring...

guess which is me?? xD

best picture of the day.. =p



10/4/2010

in the afternoon, i went out with jerry to have our lunch in jusco... then i followed eric to infinity.

he drove me back as i wasn't feeling that well... then suddenly that night, michael called me out.. so, i went to breeze cafe with my first garden buddies.. ken drove me out.. had to go out even how tired i was... LOL... 'cause michael will be going back on the next day.. hugged him ^^.. best picture for the day...

不想，却坚强的放手。。

25/4/2010

went out to jusco.. window shopping and then spent our time yum cha in black canyon coffee... i could barely breathe 'cause those craps are damn funny and stopped me from eating... xD
i ordered tom yam mee... but then i left it for almost an hour only i could finish it.. LOL!
then we snapped some pictures.. buwee!!